October 17, 2022

Reflection

YOU'LL  KNOW

You'll know when you start to wonder about a hereafter.

You'll know when you get sick or you need some tests - or you need surgery or chemo or radiation.

You'll know when a close friend or family member dies and they are younger than you.

You'll know when you attend enough funerals.

You'll know when you start to wonder - doubt - question - whether there is anything after this.

You'll know when you wonder about your religion - present or former - comparing it to other religions - when you begin thinking about death and resurrection - salvation or damnation - existence or annihilation forever.

You'll know when you wonder about God - what God is like - and you'll realize you have no say in what God is like or whether there is a hereafter - all is totally out of your hands - as it has always been.

You'll know when you start to pray - to be able to let go - and to put it all into God's hands.

You'll know when you start to write stuff like this.

You'll know when you'll wake up on the other side of life -and there you are - and then you know whether there is judgment - whether there is heaven - whether there is hell - whether hell is second guessing and regrets - and heaven is - you tried - you gave - you opened up you heart - you became one in Christ and both of you see each other and you laugh - he putting his hands into your cuts and your insides and you putting your's into his and everyone elses and you say, "My Lord and my God."

You'll know ....