Monday, May 21, 2018

May 23, 2018

Reflections

UNSPOKEN CONVERSATIONS -
LETTERS NEVER SENT


There have been too many conversations
I had  with so and so … but they were never
spoken to or at them - only inside my mind.

There have been letters that I wrote but never
sent to them. They were crumbled, ripped up
and tossed into the waste paper basket.

And I was taught - and always thought - unspoken words, crumbled, or deleted words -never spoken or sent, would ever hurt anyone.

Little did I know, wastepaper words, unspoken
feelings can’t remain silent. They become my
face – my scowl - my  itch – my twitch.

They become a virus in my random access memory.
Does unconscious speak to unconscious – and the
other knows – without knowing - the unspoken, the unsaid?


© Andy Costello, Reflections 2018  

May  23, 2018


Thought for today: 

“Our concern is not how to worship in the catacombs but how to remain human in the skyscrapers.  


Abraham Joshua Heschel  [1907-1972]


May 22, 2018

BLOCKAGE

You just don’t get it.
You just don’t know.
You just don’t understand,
because you have become
filled with too much you.
Big bulking question marks
just can’t fit inside your being.



© Andy Costello, Reflections 2018
Drawing: New Yorker,
September 24, 1960
Saul Steinberg  




May 22, 2018



Thought for today: 

“You grow up the day you have the first real laugh - at yourself.”  


Ethel Barrymore [1879-1959]


May 21, 2018



CAN'T SIN

The silent lily, the green 

grass background, 
just standing there -
shaking, bending,
being there beautiful,
but it can sin,
therefore,  it can't love,
therefore, I rather be me.


© Andy Costello, Reflections 2018  

May 21, 2018




Thought for today: 

“Don’t ever slam a door;  you might want to go back.”  

Don Herold

Sunday, May 20, 2018



HAVE  FAITH

INTRODUCTION

The title of my homily for this feast of Pentecost - 50 days after Easter - is, “Have Faith.”

When I read today's readings and that theme hit me, I said to myself, "What? Where is that coming from?"

So here goes. Let me try to explain.

LARRY

A classmate of mine in August of 1966, said something to me that has had an  impact on my life ever since.

Larry and I - as well as 13 other guys - were ordained  priests in June of the year before.

I’m talking to Larry a year later and he says to me, “Wow! I just realized I’ve been preaching the same sermon every weekend for the past year. I’ve been saying to folks, ‘Have faith.’”

Then he paused and said, “I guess I was talking to myself. I guess I need faith - deeper faith.”

So I asked myself, “What have I been preaching on?”

I didn’t have an answer as clear as his answer. I didn’t know. 

I still don’t know after almost 53 years.

Do I have the same message - week after week after week - all these years?

I do have some answers - as well as various questions - about what I'm about and what I'm preaching.

HAVE FAITH

In a way I’ve thought about that “Have faith” question and answer a bit.

I thought about that moment  with Larry when I read the first possible gospel for this feast. [Cf. John 20:19-23]

It says, “Whose sins you forgive are forgiven them, and whose sins you retain are retained.” 

That hit me. However, I like the translation “hold on to” better than the word “retain” or “krateo” in Greek.

To forgive another's sins.... Now that’s quite a power - to be a priest and forgive sins in the name of God.

From time to time while hearing confessions, I’ve found myself saying - especially when giving absolution, “Wow this is quite a belief - that I am forgiving sins  - here in confession - because of sins that took place out there in homes, on the street  or at work.”

It’s a scary thought. In reality, I’m making that act of faith and absolving this person of their sins in a confessional.

That’s quite a belief.

Then I wonder, “Does this person confessing his or her sins believe?  Do they make an act of faith - that their sins are forgiven?"  

This is quite an act of faith by two people.

Pinch me!

Then it hits me: do we realize we all have the power to forgive sins - or to hold onto sins - out there at home, on the street, or at work.

I have learned that with or without the sacrament of penance and confessionals - people hold onto hurts or mistakes they have made or were made on them - all their life.

Or at some point they make peace with their mistakes or their hurts.

Come Holy Spirit - bring forgiveness into our homes and our hearts and minds.

Help this person coming to confession make this act of faith and accept forgiveness.

In other words, "Have faith!"

MANY SUCH MOMENTS - CALLING FOR  ACTS  OF  FAITH

As human beings we need to make many acts of faith in life.

This is good water. This is good lettuce - I just read the label. These other drivers are decent drivers.  These school kids will not be shot today.

As human beings we have to make many acts of faith each day.

As priest I make many acts of faith.

For example, I stand here in this church - at that  altar right there [POINT] and at the moment of consecration I say, “Take this, all of you, and eat of it, for this is my body, which will be given up for you.” 

Then, “In a similar way, when supper is ended, he took the chalice and, once more giving thanks, he gave it to his disciples saying, ‘Take this, all of you, and drink from it, for this is the chalice of my blood, the blood of the new and eternal covenant, which will be poured out for you and for many for the forgiveness of sins. Do this in memory of me.’”

This is quite an act of faith we make at Mass - when we believe the bread and the wine become the body and blood of Christ.

I make that act of faith. You make that act of faith. Over a billion people in the world - who name and claim themselves as Catholics make that act of faith - those going to church and those not going to church. 

In fact, many of those who drop out of church - come back because this is what they are missing: the body and blood of Christ.

In fact, our Pope, Francis, and many others are wrestling with this question of intercommunion - as in couples who are married and one say is Lutheran and the other is Roman Catholic - both of whom have faith - why can’t they both receive Communion when they come to Mass together?

Faith - have faith - is a big question dealing with very big questions.

I think this evening of those 10 people who were shot and killed in Sante Fe - Holy Faith - Texas.  We hear people say they have gone home to God or they are with God - and they are with those who have gone before us.

Now that’s a great act of faith - this belief in life after death - because Christ has risen from the dead.

St. Paul makes that act of faith central to Christianity.  He says in 1st Corinthians 15 that if Christ did not rise from the dead, we’re all a bunch of fools. Our baptism means nothing.

Listen to Paul in 1 Corinthians 15: 17-19, “If Christ has not been raised, your faith is futile and you are still in your sins."

Then Paul continues, "And what is more serious all who have died in Christ have perished."

More, "If our hope in Christ has been for this life only,  we are the most unfortunate of all people." 

COME HOLY SPIRIT

Those of us who have faith in Jesus Christ - make tremendous acts of faith.

We believe in realities that people think we’re crazy for believing in.

We pray for more faith.

Come Holy Spirit.

Today, Pentecost, we’re praying for more faith - for more of the Spirit.

In the first reading for today, Acts 2: 1-11 - the disciples were hiding out in the upper room, scared and afraid, and a strong driving wind blew into that house and filled it - and tongues, splashes - as if they were of fire filled each of them - and they were filled with the Holy Spirit of God - and they went out into big crowds of people and spoke in the languages of everyone there - people from everywhere - Galileans from where they were from - Parthians, Medes, Elamites, Romans, people from Crete and Arabs. All heard all. All understood all.

Right now, this Pentecost - people around the world - in all kinds of languages are hearing today’s second reading  - 1 Corinthians 12: 3b-7, 12-13. It states that we cannot say, “’Jesus is Lord,’ except by the Holy Spirit.”

They are hearing we are one body - with many parts and many gifts - because we have all been given to drink of the one Spirit.

CONCLUSION

This homily has gotten too long, so let me wrap it up this way.

The title and theme of my homily for today is, “Have Faith.”

I’m saying that we have faith because of the Holy Spirit.

In the first book of the Bible we hear that God formed us from the mud and clay of the earth like a sculptor and then breathed his Spirit - RUAH - in Hebrew - into us.

When we let go of that Spirit, that Breath of God - we die during our life - and at the end of our life.

So every day - pray, "Come Holy Spirit".

So every day - when you pray, breathe in, breathe out, breathe out evil - bad spirits - and breathe in the fresh breath of God. Amen.



May 20, 2018

CARDS  FROM  LONG  AGO


She told me - when she gets lonely,
she gets out the cards
he gave her from long ago.

Then she added
the best part of the story.

When his eyes were almost
gone - when he couldn’t read,
he’d ask the card store lady
to read the words inside
out loud, till he heard
a  really  good one.


© Andy Costello, Reflections 2018  




May 20, 2018 


Thought for today: 

“When I say ‘everybody says so,’ I mean I say so.” 


Ed Howe  [1853 - 1937]

Saturday, May 19, 2018

May 19, 2018


LOOK   AWAY


“Dad, why do you always look away when I
ask, “Don’t you think you’re drinking too much?”

“Hon, why do you always look away
when I ask, ‘How about going out to eat?”

“Mom, when I ask, ‘Are you going to go to
the doctor?’ you always look away. Why?”

When I ask, "Are you the one who keeps
doing this, you always look away.”

"Look me in the eye, please! Don't you
realize I'm scared to look you in the eye too?"

“Don’t look away. Look me in the eye and
tell me you want in or out of this relationship.”


© Andy Costello, Reflections 2018  





May 19, 2018


Thought for today: 


“It is not heroin or cocaine that makes one an addict, it is the need to escape from a harsh reality.  There are more television addicts, more baseball and football addicts, more movie addicts and certainly more alcohol addicts in this country than there are narcotics addicts.” 


Shirley Chisholm, 
testimony to House Select 
Committee on Crime, 
September 17, 1969

Friday, May 18, 2018




NERVOUS

Biting, trying to bite,
a tiny piece of skin 
with my teeth from 
my lower lip ….

Taping my fingers 
on a table top or a desk 
when you’re making yet 
again another request ….

Trying to get my finger 
nail under the edge of 
a scab on last week’s 
cut on my left hand ….

And these are just 
possible visible signs …. 
You have no idea what you 
do to the skin of my soul.


© Andy Costello, Reflections 2018 


May 18, 2018 



Thought for today: 

“Do not offer advice  which has not been seasoned by your own performance.” 


Henry S. Haskins

Thursday, May 17, 2018



MOOD

Mood, like two dozen shirts or blouses,
suits or dresses, hanging there in the
morning closet - waiting for the occupant.

What will I wear today? How will I be today?
Smiling? Laughing? Lonely? or Sad?
Peppy? Angry? Aggressive or Silent?

Pick me! Pick me! Pick me! And my world
waits - watching me coming through the
front door saying, “Oh yes!”  or “Oh no!”

© Andy Costello, Reflections 2018 


May 17, 2018 


Thought for today: 


My little daughter said, "Daddy, I am going to count the stars."

“Very well," I said, "go on.

By and by I heard her counting, "Two hundred and twenty-three, two hundred and twenty-four. Oh dear!," she said, I had no idea there were so many!"

I sometimes say in my soul. "Now, Master, I am going to count your blessings." Soon my heart sighs, not with sorrow, but burdened with such goodness, and I say to myself, "I had no idea that there were so many.”  


Mark Pearse

Wednesday, May 16, 2018

May 16, 2018

AT   LEAST  4 


Did you know that everyone 
has at least 4 keys they hang 
on a belt at their side or in
their soul. The puzzle is, the
story is, we don’t know whose
cage or jail cell they belong to.

So we have to meet a lot of
people - we have to interact
with a lot of people - and
slowly - one by one - we meet
at least 4 people whom we set
free and then the, “Thank you!”

 © Andy Costello, Reflections 2018 


May 16, 2018 



Thought for today: 

“The truth [is] that  there  is only one terminal dignity - love.  And the story of a love is not important - what is important is that one is capable of love.  It is perhaps the only glimpse we are permitted of eternity.”  

Helen Hayes, Guideposts, January 1960

Tuesday, May 15, 2018


ON  LEAVING

INTRODUCTION

The title of my homily for this Tuesday of the Seventh Week of Easter  is, “On  Leaving.”

If I heard anything from other priests,  it’s our “uunh” - a word that won’t make it in Scrabble - when we read  these post Easter readings - especially from the Gospel of John. We say that because we like to give a homily on weekdays - but  there is too much repetition in these readings - especially from John

It has a series of themes about loving, remaining in Jesus’ love, this is my commandment, love one another as  I have loved you - and we hear this over and over again.  They are wonderful - but enough already.

TODAY’S TWO READINGS

So we read the readings a couple of extra times in hopes something pops up that he have not touched upon lately.

I did that last night and today’s two readings talk about leaving several times.  That’s a recurring theme: leaving.

So let me see if I can milk some comments about leaving.

LEAVING

That’s something we’re always doing  in various ways throughout our life: leaving.

We leave the womb. We leave the hospital.

We leave for school that first time. Then for an overnight with friends. Then we go off to college or the military or where have you.

We leave for work. We leave relationships. We leave for Marriage. We leave after death or a divorce.  We leave jobs. We leave when we retire. We leave for Tennessee or Florida. Someone dies, so we come back home again. Hopefully, we get out and get moving and get leaving again.

IN THE SCRIPTURES

There’s lots of leaving …. lots of migrations …. lots of moving in the Bible.  Adam and Eve leave the Garden…. Noah gets on the ark…. Abraham does a lot of moving…. Abraham’s descendants are often heading elsewhere.

Joseph ends up being sold into Egypt.  Moses leaves Egypt. He  leads those descendants towards the Promised Land. They finally leave the desert - and land in the Promised Land.

So there is not only an Exodus, but there’s also the Exile.  

THEN WE GET TO THE NEW TESTAMENT

Jesus moves around in his early years.  Then he settles into his quiet years. Then he finally leaves Nazareth and gets going.

Then he calls disciples to drop everything, to leave home and to follow him.

Then he leaves his disciples and leaves and ascends into heaven.

Then we’re called to leave our inner perceptions on how life is supposed to work.

LESSONS

With all these leaves of absence, we need to learn something.

We have not here a lasting home here.

We need to learn to let go at times.

We can get stuck in stupidity or sin or regrets or resentments. I preached on that last Sunday.

When we leave - we can look back from a distance - and see what’s back home and who’s really important much better.

Absence makes the heart grow fonder. Out of sight, out of mind can also happen.

We come to church; we leave from church - hopefully all the better.

CONCLUSION

Today - at the end of this day, to ask, “Did I leave a good feeling in all the rooms I was in today?”

Or in Fortune Cookie Language: So leave that they wished you stayed more than they wanted to see you leave.”

May 15, 2018


 THE  ALTAR  TO 
THE  UNKNOWN  GOD 


St. Paul walked around Athens
checking out all the Athenian gods -
till he found  an altar “To the Unknown God.”
He said to himself, “Wow! Now I have
a sermon to the Athenians.”

There are no Letters to the Athenians.
They listened to his long speech. A
few joined him - but the majority said
the same old - same old - put off,
“We’ll hear you again about all this.”[1]

Every one of us in every age
has to walk past our outside gods
and then walk within to our inner
room where we can find
“My Lord and my God.” [2]



[1] Acts 17: 16-34
[2] Matthew 6: 5-15


© Andy Costello, Reflections 2018  


May 15, 2018



Thought for today: 

“Among animals, one has a sense of humor. Humor saves a few steps, it saves years”


 Marianne Moore, “The Pagolin,” 1941


Monday, May 14, 2018



CEMETERY  MOMENTS

INTRODUCTION

The title of my homily is, “Cemetery Moments.”

There are moments and there are moments.

What are your thoughts when you stand on cemetery grass - and you look down on grey granite cemetery stones  - or upright white marble tombstones? What are your thoughts?  What are your wonderings?

There are stories here. A cemetery is a library - but most books can’t be opened and read. They are closed books in boxes buried six feet underground. We don’t know who this person was. Sometimes all we see is a name and some numbers.

VIETNAM VETERAN’S MEMORIAL

It’s a human experience - this wondering about people buried beneath our feet - on behind a wall - like the Vietnam Memorial Wall in Washington D.C.

I’ve been to that Wall a few times. I remember going with a Vietnamese Redemptorist: Hai Dinh. We were in Washington D.C. and this was the one place he wanted to see. He was quiet as he stood there.  His biggest surprise was -  how far away from the Wall -  the tall Washington Monument was. When he saw the Memorial Wall on TV, he noticed the Washington Monument in the sky behind the memorial.



My experience was different. Every time I’ve been there, I  deliberately looked for a name on that wall - the brother of a Redemptorist who died in Vietnam: Thomas Francis Campbell - 19 years of age. Born May 18, 1948. Died April 9, 1968. He was in Vietnam just a few months:  February 6 till April 9, 1968.

YOUR FAMILY STONES - YOUR FAMILY MEMORIALS

Where are your family stones? Who’s buried there?

Has anyone taken pictures and made a photo album of many of the grave stones they know of in their family. Then they can sit down at times with that album as a prayer book. It’s as good as an old person’s prayer book getting fatter and fatter with the years with death memorial cards. Or they can sit with that photo album and tell the next generation about who has gone before them?

Does anyone ever take the little ones - or the next few generations - to the stones and tell the stories?

More and more people are into cremation and some into saving the cremains on mantle pieces or buried in back yards or at sea. It’s my opinion that stones - memorial stones - tomb stones last longer that urns - just as people give diamonds and share the word “forever” with each other.

FEAST OF SAINT MATTHIAS

Today is the feast of Saint Matthias: May 14.

The only thing we know about Saint Matthias is that he took the place of Judas - and got chosen by a lottery of sorts.  After that come the legends and the traditions.

Some say he traveled to Ethiopia. Others list the region of modern day Georgia - formerly of the Soviet Union.  Catholics, Lutherans and Anglicans honor him.  He is patron saint of alcoholics, carpenters, Gary Indiana, and Great Falls and Billings Montana. There are written fragments of the so called Gospel of Matthias - a 2nd century document from a heretical group.

SISTER MATTHIAS

Now why am I mentioning all this?

When I was a kid, I went with my father to Portland, Maine to visit his sister, a Mercy Nun, Sister Mary Patrick.  We went to the graves of two of his sisters who were Mercy Nuns as well, but they died in their 20’s - one as a young nun, 29, Sister Matthias,  and the other as a postulant who also got sick and died in her 20’s.

Well, a few years ago some of us from the parish went on a cruise to New England and 2 places in Canada: St. John’s New Brunswick and Nova Scotia.


On the day we stopped into Portland Maine I went off by myself to St. Joseph’s convent - where my dad’s sister worked for 50 plus years in the kitchen. I didn’t know where anything was, so I didn’t want to stick anyone with a wild goose chase. Then I walked to a cemetery to find my father’s sisters. I found 2 of them:  Sister Mary Patrick - and Sister Matthias.

I knew Sister Mary Patrick - but I knew nothing, nothing about Sister Matthias.  I found her grave - but I didn’t find the other grave. 

Anyway I was doing something in memory of Sister Matthias Costello - and the only other thing on her stone besides her name was: 1884 - 1913.

CONCLUSION

It’s good to know that somewhere 100 years from now, our names will be somewhere - in a graveyard, on a ship manifesto, in a telephone book, on a memorial card, in a handwritten something, with the words, “Love” and then our name.

It’s good to have been here - even if all we did was to replace someone else - like Saint Matthias - and we did our best.

May 14. 2018

BOYS  DO  THAT!


Boys do that!

They see a worm.
They see a kid right in front of them.
They put that worm in that kids pocket.

Boys do that!

They see a stick.
It’s dueling season.
It’s hitting season.

Boys do that!

They see a rock.
They see a cow.
They throw that rock at that cow.

Boys do that!

They have been doing these things
ever since their parents told them
to go play outside the cave.

Boys do that!

What? You want them to stop?
Be thankful. They haven’t even discovered 
girls yet. Get ready for what’s next.

Boys do that.

Haven’t you heard the old Latin saying,
“Sunt pueri pueri, pueri purerilia tractant.”
“Boys will be boys and they’re always going to be boys.”


© Andy Costello, Reflections 2018