May 29, 2015

IT DOESN’T MATTER

“Oh, it doesn’t matter!”

There I said it, but I really didn’t mean it.

It mattered and it hurt.

It hurt so much - that I wanted to run -

that I wanted to run away.

So I lied.

So I said, “It doesn’t matter.”

So I wonder - afterwards -

always afterwards - does it matter

if I lie, if I hide, if I bury hurts?

But if I admit it hurts, if I say

“It really hurts!” will what always

happens happen again:  more hurt...."

And I’ll walk away muttering,

“Oh, it doesn’t matter.”

© Andy Costello, Reflections 2015