February 1, 2022
SELF-PORTRAIT
Don’t we all wonder at times what they think of us?
I know – knowing one person loves me – does an awful lot
for less worry about how I am – how I come across.
Yet, I can be talking with 15 people at a party and one
person says in a fiftienth of a second,
“You look like Spencer Tracy. Did anyone
ever tell you that?”
“No,” I answered.
Then I jokingly add, “Doctor Kevorkian yes. And the
coroner of Honesdale, PA. Yes. Spencer
Tracy. No.”
And I meet 15 more people – and 15 days after that – and
15 more life experiences after that – and that one comment sticks about Spencer
Tracy.
Spencer Tracy? No I don’t look like him.
Why? Why does that
comment stick to the inside of my eye lids and I keep looking at it?
I know from experience that people always go ga ga over self-tests
– that help us know something about ourselves.
Why?
Is it that I’m always wondering how I’m coming across.
Then I read a quote by Groucho Marx, “She’s afraid that
if she leaves, she’’ become the life of the party.”
Then I remember that’s so like the saying of Oscar Wilde
I’ve used in a dozen talks, “Some cause happiness wherever they go; others
cause happiness whenever they go.”
Uh oh!
I guess I’m still not sure of myself.
Who cares?
I do.
© Andy Costello, Reflections 2022
