FORBIDDEN FRUIT

May 19, 2011

Quote for Thursday, May 19. 2011, on the Forbidden  from St. Augustine

THE STOLEN FRUIT

        "(9) Surely, Lord, your law punishes theft, as does that law written on the hearts of men, which not even iniquity itself blots out. What thief puts up with another thief with a calm mind? Not even a rich thief will pardon one who steals from him because of want. But I willed to commit theft, and I did so, not because I was driven to it by any need, unless it were by poverty of justice, and dislike of it, and by a glut of evildoing. For I stole a thing of which I had plenty of my own and of much better quality. Nor did I wish to enjoy that thing which I desired to gain by the theft, but rather to enjoy the actual theft and the sin of theft.

       "In a garden nearby to our vineyard there was a pear tree, loaded with fruit that might be desirable neither in appearance nor in taste. Late one night - to which hour, according to our pestilential custom, we kept up our street games - a group of very bad youngsters set out to shake down and rob this tree. We took great loads of fruit from it, not for our own eating, but rather to throw it to the pigs; even if we did eat a little of it, we did this to do what pleased us for the reason that it was forbidden.

        "Behold my heart, O Lord, behold my heart upon which you had mercy in the depths of the pit. Behold, now let my heart tell you what it looked for there, that I should be evil without purpose and that there should be no cause for my evil but evil itself.  Foul was the evil, and I loved it. I loved to go down to death.  I loved my fault, not that for which I did the fault, but I loved the fault itself. Base in soul was I, and I leaped down from your firm clasp even towards complete destruction, and I sought nothing from the shameful deed but shame itself."

St. Augustine [354-430], Confessions, Chapter  4, Book 2 - pages 69-70 in John K. Ryan's translation of The Confessions of St. Augustine, Image Books, A Division of Doubleday & Company, Inc. Garden City, N.Y., 1960