Sunday, June 7, 2009



THEOLOGY AND THE TRINITY

INTRODUCTION

The title of my homily is, “Theology and The Trinity.”

This Sunday is called, “Holy Trinity Sunday,” so obviously some comments about God and God as Trinity are called for.

Let me take 10 minutes to make 5 points. Check your watches. However, as we all know, sometimes 10 minutes feels like an hour and sometimes an hour feels like 10 minutes.

FIRST POINT: EVERYONE HAS IDEAS ABOUT GOD

Everyone has thoughts, ideas understandings, “figuring”s, about God.
What are yours?

If I asked you to give 5 thoughts – 5 understandings about God – what would they be? You’re allowed to have doubts as we heard in today’s gospel from Matthew (Cf. Matthew 28:17.)

Even atheists have thoughts about God. God doesn’t exist.

Theology means “words about God”. Everyone is a theologian – more or less – because everyone has words about God.

How have our inner words of and with God developed, changed, grown through the years?

Have you ever heard someone say something about God and you found yourself saying, “I don’t agree with that.” or, “That’s not my God.” or “That’s not my creed.”?

Who’s right? Who’s wrong? Can everyone be right and nobody’s wrong when it comes to God?

What are your ideas and inner words about and with God?

SECOND POINT: ORIGINS – GOD IS OUR ORIGINS

We can assume that everyone in the world has a mom and a dad. As Descartes said, “Cogito, ergo sum.” “I think, therefore I am.” If I can think, I am here.

Well, then, if I am and I’m here, therefore I had to originate from a mom and a dad. That’s the way it works. See a person – see a mom and a dad.

We don’t say, “I believe you had a mom and a dad.” We know another has a mom and a dad.

We might have been adopted or what have you – but we still know we had parents.

Even if we know our parents, we might not know them as much as we would like – and hopefully we can get to know them better as life goes on.

Why don’t we apply these basic thoughts to God?

In my third year of college – in a philosophy course on God, called, “Theodicy,” I made a life changing move in my mind. I stopped believing in God – and I moved to saying in my mind, “I know there is a God.” I don’t say that to trigger a tiny tinge of the sensational, but with the hope you’ll think of the significant moments in your life when you had breakthroughs in your thoughts about and with God.

So I don’t believe in God, I know there is a God; just as I don’t believe you had parents, I know you had parents.

I was in my early 20’s when I took that philosophy course – and that realization has stayed with me ever since.

It is basically “The Watchmaker Argument for God” and it made sense to me.

And way before that moment in college, I remember when I was around 10 years old, I opened up the back of an old watch I found in a top drawer. It was stopped. With the back off, I wound it up by the stem. Amazing – tick, tick, tick – all those parts were moving. Amazing. It just didn’t happen. I wound that watch up. Also as a kid, I knew I didn’t make that watch. A watchmaker did. So when I see the stars and the deep night sky – also having gone to Hayden Planterium in New York City as a kid, having seen the Star War movies as well as 2001: A Space Odyssey, having seen the Moon Landings on TV, picturing the heavens all moving in wonderful sync, I say, “Wow! God! Universe Maker!” People coming into this church for the first time look at the ceiling, at the stars up here, and sometimes I’ve heard them go “Wow!” The hope is all will look out each night at the real thing and say, “Wow, God, wow!”

THIRD POINT: THEOLOGY AND SUFFERING

Figuring stuff out about God is what theology is all about. To become a priest I had 4 years of theology after college.

Then I had a whole life time as a priest to discover even more about God. My first big discovery after ordination is that many people discover “There is a God” from suffering.

In trying to keep this sermon to 10 minutes, let me sum up this third point about how people often come to God through suffering with a poem called “Fever” by John Updike who died recently.

FEVER

I have brought back a good message
from the land of 102 degrees.
God exists.
I had seriously doubted it before;
but the bedposts spoke of it with utmost confidence,
the threads in my blanket took it for granted,
the tree outside the window dismissed all complaints,
and I have not slept so justly for years.
It is hard, now, to convey
how emblematically appearances sat
upon the membranes of my consciousness;
but it is a truth long known,
that some secrets are hidden from health.


FOURTH POINT: THEOLOGY AND MAPS

Of my 5 points this is the most important point – and if this doesn’t grab you, this homily entitled, “Theology and the Trinity,” flops.

After I got ordained I discovered the writings of C.S. Lewis – who wrote a long time before I was ordained.

When I had to sit down with someone who was interested in becoming a Catholic, I checked out various catechisms. This was before the R.C.I.A. program. By trial and error, headiness and head scratching, I found C.S. Lewis’ book Mere Christianity great.

As in everything, the teacher learned more than the student.

C.S. Lewis wrote a lot of books. Many folks are familiar with The Chronicles of Narnia or The Screwtape Letters. I became very familiar with Mere Christianity.

It came out in 1943 and it was basically some radio talks he had given and then put into print.

If you want some clarity for your theology, C.S. Lewis’ book, Mere Christianity, is a good place to start. It’s a thin paperback – 190 pages still being sold in Borders, Barnes and Noble or on line, or check the library. It’s worth owning your own copy. Mark it up big time.

Let me give one example from this former atheist that has helped me immensely.

In Book IV of Mere Christianity, “Beyond Personality: Or First Steps in the Doctrine of the Trinity,” in the chapter entitled, "Making and Begetting,"* C.S. Lewis tells the following story.

He was giving a talk to some members of the R.A.F, the Royal Air Force, when “an old hard-bitten officer got up and said, ‘I’ve no use for all that stuff. But, mind you, I’m a religious man too. I know there’s a God. I’ve felt him: out alone in the desert at night: the tremendous mystery. And that’s just why I don’t believe all your neat little dogmas and formulas about him. To anyone who’s met the real thing they all seem so petty and pedantic and unreal!’”

C.S. Lewis then says, “Now in a sense I quite agree with that man. I think he had probably had a real experience of God in the desert. And when he turned from that experience to the Christian creeds, I think he really was turning from something real to something less real. In the same way, if a man has once looked at the Atlantic from the beach, and then goes and looks at a map of the Atlantic, he also will be turning from something real to something less real: turning from real waves to a bit of colored paper. But here comes the point. The map is admittedly only colored paper but there are two things you have to remember about it. In the first place, it is based on what hundreds and thousands of people have found out by sailing the real Atlantic. In that way it has behind it masses of experience just as real as the one you could have from the beach; only, while yours would be a single isolated glimpse, the map fits all those different experiences together. In the second place, if you want to go anywhere, the map is absolutely necessary. As long as you are content with walks on the beach, your own glimpses are far more fun than looking at a map. But the map is going to be more use than walks on the beach if you want to get to America.”

C.S. Lewis then says that theology is like the map.

People are deeply moved by God experiences whether at the ocean or on a mountain or at Mass or while visiting Christ in our Eucharistic chapel. They might have the kind of experience that the old R.A.F. guy had in the desert.

C. S. Lewis says that pious feelings are nice – but if you want to get further, then you need a map.

Theology is the result of hundreds and hundreds and hundreds of people who brought up – talked about – their experiences of God. Theology is the result of Theologians dealing with God questions over a long period of time.

FIFTH AND LAST POINT: WHAT’S THE WATCHMAKER LIKE?

My last thought is a question: “What’s the watchmaker like?” This is where faith really comes into the picture.

I can figure out with reason that the Creator of this Universe likes math and movement – complexity and diversity – beauty and a lot of everything. There are millions and millions of mosquitoes. Why so many God? Why so many? They are ruining my picnic. And when it comes to “Why” questions, when it comes to suffering and surprises I don’t like, then I have to begin to rely more and more on faith.

And the big “WHY” questions are usually people questions – relationship questions – family questions. Why is so and so, so UGGGGROWLGROWLGROWLURRRZZHRZ!!???!!!!

Surprise the great Christian revelation is that God is Three Persons – who is One God – so in love with each other – that they wanted more in the Union. Hint. Hint. We are made in the image and likeness of God and when we three, when we are 3, 6 billion and are in union with each other and God, then we really are in the image and likeness of God.

Today we celebrate the feast of the Blessed Trinity. We can figure God out by reason – that God exists by reason – but what God is like calls for faith. Prayer is necessary.

We as Christians believe Jesus came to tell us what God is like: a Father, A Son, and A Holy Spirit – and they are love – every expanding love – that wants to bring us into the expansion.

Now that’s where mystery appears and that’s where faith is called for.

And that’s why we read the scriptures and come to church – week after week after week – with the hope that our knowledge of this mysterious Three in One God keeps growing.

And that’s why we don't just come to church alone – but most of the time we come with each other.

And after we die, there is going to be a lot more – and God has that map. Surprise.


*C. S. Lewis, Mere Christianity, page 135-137

Sunday, May 31, 2009


BREATHE


INTRODUCTION

The title of my homily for this feast of Pentecost is, “Breathe!”

“Breathe!”

Breathe. Catch your breath. Pull yourself together.

Breath is one of three big images of the Holy Spirit in our scriptures – the other two being fire and the dove.

Today: my stress would be to reflect upon breathing.

Air – Spirit – Breath – Wind – the Invisible all around us. We don’t see air – but we see its effects. The shaking storm, the gentle breeze, the waving trees – the wind coming off the waters at the ocean.... Air – Spirit – Breath – Wind.... Without it – we wouldn’t be. Come Holy Spirit. Come all three Persons of God – into us. Come breathe New Life into all of us.

WHEN WE COME TO CHURCH

When we come to church, when we come to pray, one of the first steps is to be aware of our breath.

Spiritual masters, gurus, teachers, often suggest breathing exercises.

Christian Spiritual masters suggest when we come here to church – after we come in – after we symbolically wash ourselves in Holy Water – after we enter into this holy place – after we sit down – after we wave to those we know in our section of the church – many folks do find a regular place in church helpful – some don’t – sit down – catch your breath.

Sit down. Close your eyes. Feel your back against the bench and your butt on the seat. Feel your feet on the floor. Be grounded. Be aware of your body – be aware of your breathing. Relax.

Next take a second breath – a deep breath – Phew! I made it. Pull in and exhale some deep breaths. We know how to do this. It’s part of a physical exam when we go to a doctor.

Next with eyes still closed become aware of your breath. Breathe in, breathe out. Put your hand three inches from your mouth. Push air towards your hand. Feel the invisible bridge of air touching your hand.

I taught novices in our Redemptorist Community prayer and spirituality for 9 years - teaching 9 different groups – each for a year and a day – so I had to learn how to teach all this stuff – which I had learned here and there since I was in my early 20’s.

Spiritual teachers teach breathing as a beginning step in prayer. Catch your breath.

When you’ve had a long day – when you pray at night or at the beginning of a new day – I always taught – have a prayer chair – a quiet spot, a place where you won’t be bothered.

Take a moment. Scan your house or backyard of porch. Do you have a place with a good chair for prayer.

Get grounded. Become aware of your breath long before words and thoughts or this and that. Just be aware of your breathing.

GENESIS 2: 6 - 7

One of the most powerful scenes in the Bible takes place in Genesis. In a very primitive, very early – most basic creation account – God takes mud and water, spit and skill, and forms us out body. Then Genesis says, “God breathed into this creation, this clay creation,, this earthen vessel, and it became a living being."

The author of this creation account wasn't there, but his imaginative was there and he sculpted this creation account out of words and image. The author simply takes what human beings have done at the birth of a child since the beginning of time. Get that baby breathing. Get that baby breathing.

And somewhere along the line humans have given other human beings artificial respiration – when a person lost their breath or were dying – or they were drowning. It’s instinct. We know that a person who is not breathing is dead or close to death – and we know, “Get this person breathing again. Get this person breathing again.”

And we all know – just visit any nursing home – that when we get old and start to lose it – we lose our ability to breathe well. Hence the need for more breakthroughs in medicines and techniques to help older folks to breathe better. And we’re grateful for modern improvements in all this. Praise God.

I witnessed my dad’s last year of life – as his emphysema got worse. Back in 1970 when he died, he didn’t have a breathalyzer or oxygen. It was tough work – this breathing skill we started since we were babies.

Breathe.

Want to learn how to pray, breathe. Be aware of this great gift of life.

RU'AH
“Ru-ah” is the Hebrew word for Spirit. You can hear breath in the word itself.

“Ru-AH!”

When the Hebrew scriptures were translated into Greek, the word “pneuma” was used to translate “ru-ah”. We use the root of this word when talking about tires – pneumatic tires – filled with air. Somewhere along the line we blew up a balloon, or basketball or football – or an inner tube. We filled it with air.

When the Greek scriptures were translated into Latin, the word “Spiritus” was used for “pneuma”.

When the scriptures were translated into English the words “spiritus” and “ghost” were used. We often think that word “ghost” means “ghost” - as in scary Halloween Ghosts. It’s more a word that describes a gust of wind. So the Holy Ghost is the Holy Gust of wind.

Whatever. If you want to learn how to pray, after catching your breath, after relaxing, you might want to pray inwardly the ancient prayer, “Come Holy Spirit.”

I like to suggest using a rosary when praying – not just for Hail Mary’s. If you want a nice morning or evening prayer, simply find a quiet place, get settled, close your eye and say 59 times – using your beads to say, “Come Holy Spirit.” You can do a whole rosary of “Come Holy Spirit's” in 5 or 10 minutes – if you can find 5 or 10 minutes of escape time.


Try this for this coming month of June – and see where that takes you. A variation on the prayer is to breathe and while breathing pray, “Come Holy Spirit.” – praying that the Holy Spirit come into our life in a new way.

But if it’s complicates prayer in doing two things at once, breathing and praying, go with just one.


COMMON AIR

Just as fishes die when they are removed from water, so too we would die, if we had no air, if oxygen disappeared.

Another thought is to realize that all of us in this church, in this upper room, are breathing common air. Ooops, should I breathe out that comment, because that could make those who worry about getting the Swine Flu because of the Sign of Peace or drinking from the one cup – become even more nervous?

I’m not sure how common air works, so I’ll have to do some more reflection upon that as a metaphor.

Every parish, every marriage, every relationship, every work site, needs fresh air.

When John XXIII called the Vatican Council he said we need to open up the windows of the church and let new life - fresh air - flow in. And that he did.

Come Holy Spirit.

SUCKS THE AIR OUT OF THE ROOM

We’ve all heard the phrase, “sucks the air out of the room.” It sort of has the same meaning as “the elephant in the room.”

Today’s first reading and today’s gospel takes place in the Upper Room – the scene for Pentecost.

The disciples were filled with fear – and fear and death can suck the air out of our lives.

The Pentecost Feast challenges us to face our fears – name the elephants – deal with what is draining us – what is sucking the air out of our upper room – our brain.

Come Holy Spirit. Help.

Notice in today’s gospel it says, “And when Jesus had said this, he breathed on them and said to them. “Receive the Holy Spirit. Whose sins you forgive are forgiven them, and whose sins you retain are retained.”

We all have this forgiveness power – to let go of anger and hurt from ourselves or others and breathe peace into the situation – into the relationship.

However, let me also give a warning. Trying to initiate a reconciliation is tough stuff – especially if it is a family split that has been going on for years. Consult. Prepare well. Think twice about this. Sometimes reaching out can make matters worse. It can open up old wounds. The old saying: “Better let sleeping dogs lie!” is often the best advice.

But also notice the Early Church burst out of that Upper Room and brought this message of peace and forgiveness, love and understanding, to not only their fellow Jews – but also to all these other women and men in so many different groups.

As the result, the early Christian communities had in the room not only folks they knew, but also, as we heard in today's first reading from Acts, "Parthians, Medes and Elamites, inhabitants of Mesopotamia, Judea, and Cappadocia, Pontus and Asia, Phrygia and Pamphylia and Egypt, the districts of Libya near Cyrene, as well as travelers from Rome, both Jews and converts to Judaism, Cretans and Arabs, yet we hear them speaking in our own tongues of the might acts of God."

How’s that for a text to challenge those of us with xenophobia or wanting everyone to speak our language – or that everyone look like us? Surprise: Catholics come in all the different sizes, shapes, colors and languages of the planet.

Come Holy Spirit. The word "Catholic" – "Kata Holos" in Greek – means with the whole world.

Come Holy Spirit.

CONCLUSION

I don't know how to end this, so let me put together a prayer to catch some closing hopes.

Breath of God
breathe on me.
Fill me with your freshness.

Breath of God,
breathe on me,
be a wind that shakes me,
wake me, stir me, prune this tree called “Me,”
knock off all my dead branches
that are not giving life..

Breath of God
breathe on me,
fill my empty sails
and take me to new depths, new shores, new life.

Breath of God,
breathe on me.
Pentecost me.
Pentecost us,.

Re-Church us. Amen.

Sunday, May 24, 2009

ASCENSION:
GLIMPSES AND QUESTIONS


INTRODUCTION

The title of my homily is, “Ascension: Glimpses & Questions.”

Traditionally the Feast of the Ascension was a Holy Day of Obligation and we celebrated it on Thursday – the 6th Thursday after Easter.

Because the Ascension can get lost in mid-week, some dioceses – like our diocese – move it to this Sunday – so that we can reflect upon it – as a Sunday community – at our regular Sabbath worship.

Yet even today – at this time – with all that is happening during these May days – graduations – weddings – Memorial Day Weekend – travel and cookouts – the feast of the Ascension still can get lost.

NEW TESTAMENT GLIMPSES OF THE ASCENSION

The Gospels and the Acts of the Apostles picture Jesus appearing here and there to the apostles and disciples after the Resurrection – giving last minute instructions – trying to get them to connect with what he had said when he was with them before he died – and then the day came – 40 days after the Resurrection when he ascends into the heavens as we heard in today’s first reading from the Acts of the Apostles as well as today’s gospel from Mark.

1943 PAINTING
Here in this church we have a big painting, a glimpse of the Ascension, up here in the front of our church. In Robert Worden’s wonderful book, St. Mary’s Church in Annapolis Maryland, A Sesquicentennial History 1853-2003, the painting of the Ascension along with two other paintings, The Good Shepherd and The Holy Spirit and Angels, were put here in 1943. He adds, “Prior to this time, these walls were bare, having been designed for the future placement of windows which were never installed.” (Cf. p. 127)

QUESTION

What would help us more: a painting of the Ascension or a window that looks out and up into the heavens? As a side note, perhaps also as a distraction, it was interesting to read in Robert Warden’s book that the windows in this church were originally plain glass. He writes, “On Wednesday, June 8, 1885, services in the church ceased and for six months, parish liturgies were held on the second floor of St. Mary’s Hall.” (Cf. p. 81) It was then that stained glass windows were installed. Only three of these first stained glass windows remain – the two up here in the sanctuary and the one big window back there on the left which you can partially see here in the church and partially see in the choir loft. In 1918 the present eight stained-glass windows along the sides of this church were installed. (Cf. p. 126) [In May of 1977 these "eight stained-glass windows were removed, releaded,and reset in new aluminum frames.... To commemorate the connection of saint Mary's to Saint John Neumann and Father (now Blessed) Francis X. Seelos, two large sets of stained-glass windows were installed on eaither side of the rear entrance to the church."] (Cf. p. 146)

Stained glass windows and paintings obviously help our religious sensibilities – but how about clear glass windows – that get us to look into and out of our homes and churches to see the world and the sky around us?

Which helps us more – pictures or nature – to reflect upon religious themes like the Ascension?

ASCENSION: QUESTIONS & GLIMPSES
Where did Jesus go after he ascended into heaven? Where was he these 40 days after Easter? How does this work?

Where do we go after we die? Where is heaven? Where is hell? Where is purgatory? How do we get our hands on these theologial issues?

Do we need a modern Dante to present a new Inferno, Purgatorio and Paradiso?

We have to deal with these questions from time to time – especially when we deal with our family deaths – or when we think about our own hereafter?


Does the Ascension help us?

Have we sat looking at a campfire – or a candle – sending smoke up into the air – rising – and then disappearing?

Have we ever seen the smile on a kid’s face holding a free helium balloon on a string – and then the kid accidently lets the balloon go and it sails up into the sky? The kid is at first fascinated at the rising balloon and then when it disappears the kid cries – experiencing loss.

I remember being at a first anniversary memorial service of someone from this parish who died and we all let go of balloons – I heard it’s now environmentally not recommended – and I watched the face of this little girl who was without her daddy for a whole year at that point. What was going through her mind?

Getting our mind on the meaning of Ascension is slippery and elusive – like getting spaghetti on a fork or eating with chop sticks. I avoid chop sticks and cut my spagetti.

QUESTION: WHERE IS HEAVEN?
Where is heaven? The human tendency is to think upwards. This is obvious. Here is earth – here is what we know – homes, flowers, macadam, mulch, green trees, as well as traffic jams, dog do do, cemeteries, empty or half empty Starbuck cups left on ledges, windshield flyers on sidewalks, tossed beer cans in church parking lots, etc. We know well the ground beneath our feet, so the skies – the heavens, the beyond our feet, have always been a great image of heaven.

The scriptures were written with a flat earth paradigm – a flat earth scenario. We know we’re a globe, a spinning sphere orbiting the sun at 18 ½ miles per second, a round planet. Yet sometimes at night, we stop to stand still and the earth too feels like it’s standing still. We look up into the above and we are amazed at the what’s up there. Vincent Van Gogh painted what we are looking at and called it, “Starry Night.” We look at it and our imagination kicks in as well our questions.

Where is heaven? Where is God? Is there a great beyond, beyond all this, and if there is, where is it?

Since Galileo – since Copernicus – since the Moon Landings, since Hubble – since seeing pictures of earth from outer space – new thoughts – new wonderings certainly enter into our imagination, prayer, consciousness, wonderings.

Is there a great garden, great green pastures, paradise, a place with a zillion mansions, somewhere way beyond where we can see?

Or we have seen documentaries of telescopes being switched for microscopes and we are taken into long journeys into atom and cells and their components and in and in and in. Will the inner journey ever end? Is there an ending in inner space? Is there an end to outer space?

Where is heaven? Is it up or is it in? Or where is it? Or do we get glimpses of it when we make life heaven for each other here on earth – when we put into practice Jesus’ teachings about the Kingdom – the prayer in every Our Father, “Thy Kingdom Come”?

QUESTION: WHERE IS GOD?
Atheists say there is no God.

Pantheists say all is God.

Mystics say there are glimpses of God all around us.

The Judeo-Christian tradition says God created all – and all is good.

We can catch glimpses of the God’s creations every day. We know beauty – the oceans – the mountains – Deep Creek Lake or an evening on the Bay – children on swings – folks playing outdoor basketball. Just go out the front door of our church – cross Duke of Gloucester Street carefully – go down Newman Street to the bottom and see the kids, the athletes playing there. Then go to Ego Alley. Watch the people and watch the birds and the boats. If you’re in your car – don’t just curse those undeciders who suddenly decide to cross the street. See their faces. See the faces of tourists enjoying Annapolis. See the smiles they bring to our store keepers faces. See couples – even couples over 50 walking and holding hands – see families enjoying ice cream – folks – folks – folks everywhere celebrating life.

These are glimpses of "Where is God?"

Did Jesus tell us to make an Inner Ascension, an inner change, a conversion, to knock out some walls, and put in some windows and see all the good, all the beautiful people and places and realities around us. when he told us to see the birds of the air and the flowers of the field – when he got stopped by all kinds of folks on the streets and roads he walked?

CONCLUSION

Ascension is illusive – like the jumbled thoughts and words of this homily – yet when we realize there are no time limits to our existence – that like Christ – we too will die – that like Christ we will rise, ascend into God – into mystery – but in the meanwhile, hopefully what becomes clearer and clearer – is we become more and more the Body of Christ each day – each day eating each other up like bread and wine – becoming Thanksgiving for each other – and after we die, becoming a Wonderful Memory for those left behind.

Amen.

Thursday, May 21, 2009


SECOND CHANCES

I found a golf ball
beneath some pine trees,
long lost, long forgotten,
from some game,
a long time ago.

Titleist - Number 1.
Pockmarked,
scarred and wrinkled.
I cleaned you off
for one more game.

Déjà vu! Oh no!
Once more, you hear
the dreaded word, “Fore!”
Once more, you're lost!
Will you be found again? Life….


© Andy Costello, Reflections 2009

WHAT’S NEW?


When we strike a match,
is the fire new?

What about wind and waves
at the beach or the wonderful water
in a splashing morning shower?
Are wind, waves, water new?

What about dance or music
and laughter? Are they ever new?

What’s new? Is it
a used car for a teenager?

Is it your hand touching mine
when I least expect it and
you want to ask me a question?

Is it a baby or a graduate or a
neighbor who just moved next door?

Is it a question or a suggestion
or an idea brought up at a meeting
by the last person you’d ever expect?

What’s new? Is God ever old?
Is anything or anyone ever old –
me, you or this year’s golden jubilarians?


© Andy Costello, Reflections 2009

NEW BOSS

She described the new boss as a barge.

I hadn’t thought about him that way,
but now that she said it, I said, “Ohhh?”

Sitting here at my desk,
like sitting at a river’s edge,
I began watching him.

When he floated out of his office
into our room I began to realize what she said.
He could fill the room with “Uh oh!” feelings,

At times he could be like a barge
filled with a heavy something
hidden underneath dark tarps.

Till she spoke I pictured him as a dentist drill.

Barge is better.
Best: what would I want him to be?
Good: who is the real person?


© Andy Costello, Reflections 2009
TRUTH OR
CONSEQUENCES

When lies slide out our mouth,
then our eyes, our throat, our heart
know the truth and resent the lies.
The lump in our throat, the looking away,
the scratching of our wrist or the top
of our ear tell us to tell the truth
and we know it. We know the truth
and “it will set us free.” (John 8:32)


© Andy Costello, Reflections 2009