PRAYING IN THE
DARK CLOUD
INTRODUCTION
The title of my homily for this 5th Monday in
Ordinary Time is, “Praying in the Dark Cloud.”
At the end of today’s first reading there is a sentence
that grabbed me: “The Lord intends to dwell in the dark cloud….”
That seems quite intense – as well as intriguing – as
well as interesting.
It’s 1 Kings 8:12.
I looked up about a dozen translations of this text
translated from the Hebrew “BAR ARA PEL”
and most have either “the dark cloud” or “the thick cloud.”
It triggered for me immediately, Saint John of the Cross – as well as F. Scott’s Fitzgerald’s comment
in an essay in The Crack-Up.
Quote: “In a real dark night of the soul
it is always three o'clock in the morning, day after day.”
People have certainly experienced God –
and screams for God – and the feelings of the absence of God – when there is
horror happening – liquor being spilled – relationships or family is falling
apart or being flimsy and they can’t
sleep at three o’clock in the morning – or three in the afternoon.
PRAYER THOUGHT
Solomon tells us in this text from 1st Kings that he built a princely house – a dwelling for the Lord –
where The Lord can abide forever – but then once more his comment, “The Lord
intends to dwell in the dark cloud.”
If we look at our life, we know we have experienced God
in churches as well as in dark clouds.
We have experienced God in sunrises and sunsets – in the mountains or on
or at the ocean – the desert or the maternity ward.
In the scriptures we have the prominence of clouds – as
places where people experienced God. For example, In Exodus we have the
pillar of fire and the cloud – leading Israel in the wilderness.
It’s good to sit on a porch on a rainy day – if there is
roof overhead - and watch the rain and
the clouds and experience God. It’s good
to get a window seat on a plane – on a cloudy day – and look out the window as
our plane breaks out of the clouds and all is light – if it’s daytime. Or it’s
good to sit on a porch at night and look at the sky or the stars or both – and
the red moon – like last night – and the silver moon – full or in slivers - other
nights.
THE CLOUD OF UNKNOWING
That comment in 1 Kings 8: 12 also triggered for me,
thoughts about The Cloud of Unknowing – the book. This 14th
century book is still around – and one can read it on line – and read commentaries
on it.
Tricky stuff – if it brings us to realize – we can never
nail down God – even on a cross – or in words – or images.
The Hebrews gave us the 1st and 2nd
commandments – as a warning not to have false images of God – and to think we
know God – as God really is.
Life is getting glimpses of those we live with – but as
they said of JFK, “Johnny We Hardly Knew You.”
Well, if that’s with each other, it’s a zillion zenith glimpses getting
to know God.
Yet in the meanwhile, the clouds lift at times and we get glimpses of the Son.
In the meanwhile, if you find yourself in the dark when
it comes to God, count yourself in the company of Mother Teresa and every
person – even the atheists – when they wonder and wrestle about God –
especially when they are in a dark cloud.
Or like Saint Scholastica, whose feast is today, who
wanted to talk to her twin brother on a long dark rainy night.