April 20, 2019
Thought for today:
“Life is an adventure in forgiveness.”
Norman Cousins,
Saturday Review,
April 15, 1978
Saturday, April 20, 2019
Friday, April 19, 2019
THE BROKEN CRUCIFIX
She could hear them tell each other - that she - this lady - their mom - their
sister - in this deathbed - had only a
short time to live.
She was happy they were there - at her bedside - her
three kids - 2 sons and a daughter - as well as 2 brothers and a sister - whom
she had not connected enough through the second half of their lives.
The priest had been there. At least a half-dozen of her
closest friends - had been there. The priest had anointed her forehead and the
palms of her hands with the sacred oil and the sacred prayers. The friends had anointed her with their
sacred stories - a few funny things that happened on a few bus rides - as well as
when they worked together in the Altar Rosary Society - 2 terms - 6 years.
But what she really saw was the broken crucifix on the
bare light tan wall above her bureau on the other side of the room from her
bed. It had fallen three times. It was
broken three times. It was glued back together three times - each time by her.
The first time it fell was when she was 11 years old. Her
father was dying and the emergency rescue squad was called to their house and
in moving him out on a gurney - one firefighter got squeezed in the maneuvering
- into the wall - his helmet hitting the crucifix. It fell. And the small 18
inch plaster statue of Christ on the wooden cross broke into 4 pieces when it hit the wooden bedroom floor.
The rescue squad kept moving - down the tight staircase - to
the front door - with dad strapped onto the gurney - oxygen mask over his mouth
- out to the ambulance - and off to the local hospital. The live body was more
important than the broken body of Christ
Upstairs she picked up the broken crucifix - the broken
Christ.
She kept it in her and her sister’s room.
That summer - after her father’s death - she put the
pieces of Christ’s broken body - back together - with white paste glue - that
she used in art class - at school. It
worked. She was meticulous and made the 4 broken pieces of the broken Christ fit
exactly back together.
After two days - after it had dried - after she got it firmly back together - the wooden cross with the
plaster Christ - she put it back again on her parent’s bedroom wall.
Down through high school years, she would
semi-consciously spot that crucifix many times when she got home from school or
sports or work and walked up the stairs to her and her sister’s bedroom on the
second floor.
When her mom died - when they were asking who wanted what
from the house, she said, “Number 1: I’ll take the crucifix in mom and dad’s
bedroom.”
She got it and put it in her bedroom - in her house - on
the wall - that she was facing when she was sleeping.
It fell two more times in the years to come. Each time
she repaired the broken Christ - each time with better and better glue: Crazy
Glue - then Monster Glue.
And now it was her time to die …. In a bed room - facing
that crucifix.
She was happy she was dying at home - unlike dad and mom.
Dad died in the hospital that night - the night
the rescue crew came to their house and the crucifix fell for the first
time. Mom died in a nursing home - but only two weeks after she went
there. The plan was to bring the cross
to the nursing home - but death was arriving too soon.
“Good thing,” she realized. “Maybe it would have got lost in the events
of mom’s death.”
Now - those around here bed were nervous quiet - making nervous comments - as
she lay there dying in her own bed.
She felt joy and sorrow - not enough glory - some light -
looking back at these series of mysteries called life.
They figured she was in a semi-conscious space and place
- figuring the morphine had pretty much knocked her out.
She was talking to Christ - her broken and her mended
Christ - on her wooden cross - on her bedroom wall.
She was saying and praying for her kids, “Father forgive
them because they don’t know yet what they are doing.”
She figured only her youngest would want that cross like she
did - when her mom died. This last one - was still going to church - along with her 6
kids - sometimes reluctantly.
She knew her other 3 kids were not broken enough yet to
know how Christ shows up in the pages and rosary beads of our lives.
“When we need him.”
She prayed for all 4 of her kids - hoping they will find
the right glue - called redeeming healing
- when they realize their broken spaces.
She prayed for her ex - long gone - far away and she
thanked our Lord for teaching her forgiveness. It took her at 10 years to move
from Jesus words on the cross, “My God, my God, why have you abandoned
me?” to her favorite prayer and words
from the cross, “Father forgive them for they don’t know what they are doing.”
She opened her eyes one last time - before she died that
Friday afternoon - she looked at the
broken Christ - her broken crucifix - and smiled - and every one of those
around the bed told the following story for years to come.
“Mom opened her eyes one last time before she died. She smiled
as she looked at me. Then she closed her eyes and died. She had such a peace
filled look. Amen.”
April 19, 2019
THE ONGOING
FLOW OF BLOOD
The blood dripped and dropped
off his body - hands, feet, side -
down to the hard dirt below….
The hard dirt below became mud
and rain as the blood sunk deeper
and deeper into the dirt and earth.
Does it ever end? Did it ever stop?
Is his blood somehow upon us
and upon our children? Hope so.
So we walk up aisles. We walk up to
the cup and sip the blood of Christ and
then we bring ourselves to each other.
1470-1528
April 19, 2019 - Good Friday
Thought for today:
“What does the apotheosis of the Cross mean, if not the
death of death, the defeat of sin, the beatification of martyrdom, the raising
to the skies of voluntary sacrifice, the defiance of pain.”
Henri Amiel, Journal, 1882
Painting on top:
Yellow Crucifixion
by Paul Gaugin [1848-1903]
Thursday, April 18, 2019
HOLY THURSDAY
The title of my reflection is, “Holy Thursday.”
We priests and lots of other people are probably wondering
if the dramatic and devastating fire in Notre Dame Cathedral in Paris - will bring even more people to Holy Week and
Easter services and liturgies this week around the world.
This morning I’d like to reflect out loud on a few
possible reflections for Holy Thursday - and its meanings.
Holy Thursday we celebrate Christ gathering with his
disciples for the Passover Meal. It’s
the last meal Christ has with his disciples before he passes over from this
life to the next.
What are the last words we want to say to those we love
and those whom we have spent our life with?
As priest I’ve heard a lot of those words at bedsides with dying
people. If you want to hear the last
words of Jesus, read the Last Supper words of Jesus around the table -
especially in the Gospel of John.
Continue this week with his words in the garden - Could
you not stay awake with me for 1 hour? Continue this week with his words from
the cross on Good Friday.
Today reflect on all the care those we know and love gave
to us and we to them. At the Last Supper
Jesus washed his disciples’ feet. At the service tonight our pastor and thousands
and thousands of priests around the
world will wash the feet of Christ’s disciples.
Reflect also on all those in
hospitals and nursing homes - and everyday homes who care for those who are
sick - for those who are dying - as well as babies and those who need care and
daily washing.
Today we reflect upon bread and wine - the Mass - the
Meal - and all the tables of the world - where and when people feed each
other. We reflect upon all the love and
all the work and all the effort that goes into a meal. The shopping, the
preparing, the cooking and the cutting - paid for by the workers of the world.
We pray, “Give us this day our daily bread.”
We pray for those out of work.
We reflect on the meaning of food. Farmers, manufactures, truck drivers, time for wheat to grow in our
fields and wine in our vineyards. The
poetry and the mystery of animals - lambs - including the Pascal Lamb - dying
to give us life and nourishment.
Today - Holy Thursday - we also think about priests and the need for priests
that parents and siblings and parishioners to encourage priests.
Good stuff to think about.
So we need churches like those recently torched in
Louisiana - as well as Notre Dame - as well as this church building and St.
John Neumann - for people to come and pray and be reflective - like us this
morning and this evening - and many more mornings and evenings in our lives.
Amen.
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