WALK  WITHIN  

TO  DISCOVER  ONE'S  

INNER WASTELAND

May  7, 2012

Quote for Today

"In the landscape of the soul 
there is a desert, a wilderness,
an emptiness,
and all the great singers
must cross this desert
to reach the beginning of their road.
Jesus, Buddha, Moses, Mohammed.
All wandered through the wasteland,
speaking to demons, 
speaking to the empty air,
listening to the wind,
before finding their dove, 
their bo tree,
their stone tablets, 
before finding their own true voice.
I have hope for you exactly 
because I see you have entered the desert,
following in the footsteps of those few 
who have been true teachers."

Ray Faraday Nelson

JUST  A  GRAPE 

ON  THE  VINE

INTRODUCTION

The title of my homily for this 5^th Sunday of Easter  is, “Just A Grape On The Vine.”

The sub-title is, “Does Anybody Know I’m Here?”

Ever feel that way?

ZEN STORY

There is an old Zen story - a Koan - a paradox puzzle - that I have been thinking about for at least 30 years now - and maybe you have heard it from time to time and thought about it. That’s what Zen puzzle stories do. They often have no definite answer or what have you, like the Zen question, “What is the sound of one hand clapping?”

Well this story goes like this.  A man climbs up a mountain by himself and finds himself on a rocky cliff. It’s all rock. He doesn’t go too close to the edge. It’s kind of scary up there. He stands there and looks off to the other side - to other mountains and other cliffs. He looks up at the cloudless blue sky. As he is admiring all this beauty - he hears a scary sound from behind him. He turns. It’s a ferocious looking big mountain lion. It’s slowly walking towards him. He gets down on his knees and crawls to the edge of the cliff. It looks like it’s a mile to the bottom - all rocks and shrub. He sees a branch about 12 inches below him - just down from the edge of the cliff. It looks like it might hold him. It’s his only hope. He’s young and strong so he reaches down grabs the branch and then goes down onto it. He’s hanging there on that branch - with his feet dangling. The mountain lion comes to the edge and looks down at him with a hissing growl. Just then the man sees a berry - a real berry on the branch and it looks good. He carefully moves his hand and carefully plucks the berry and puts it into his mouth. And it was the most delicious tasting berry and fruit he ever tasted in his life.

End of story. Take that story and taste it. Digest it for the next 30 years. Listen to what it tells you. You're on your own with that image.

Like that berry, like that man hanging on that branch - just off the edge of that cliff, “Does Anybody Know I’m Here?”

Ever feel that way?

JUST A GRAPE ON THE VINE

The title of my homily is, “Just A Grape on the Vine.”

Since grapes and vines are mentioned in today’s gospel, I began thinking about Jesus and grapes. And it triggered the memory of that Zen story about the berry on the mountain cliff.

As I read the gospels,  I like to picture when Jesus experienced or noticed what he was talking about.

Did he like to walk the countryside and stop to look -  not just at the birds of the air and the beauty of the flowers of the fields?

Did he walk into vineyards and see the color and glistening skin of different grapes?

Did he watch vine dressers or even talk to them and learn about pruning grape vines to get better fruit? 


Did he sneak a grape off a vine and eat it then and there and praise God for the delicious tasting fruit of the earth?

Did he watch folks crush grapes at a vine press and see the red juice flow into wooden or earthen tubs? 


Did he realize this is life: being food for others - being crushed at times - in sacrifice - to give life to others. 


Did he think about all this at the Last Supper where today’s gospel is part of - and then he said, “This is my blood which I’m pouring out for you?”

At the Last Supper as Jesus said his powerful words, did he feel like just a grape on the vine? Did anyone know what he was really saying that night at that Last Supper? Ever feel that way at the dinner table?

AMERICA MAGAZINE

The April 30, 2012 issue of America magazine has two articles that I found very interesting. They follow each other. I was wondering if the lay out team planned it that way. If yes, good move. If not, good luck.

The first article is by a priest in the Archdiocese of St. Louis, Father John Jay Hughes. I’ve heard his name before, but not lately. His article tells why he became a Catholic. The second article is by two people: William Byron and Charles Zech. Byron is a Jesuit and former president of Scranton University and Catholic University and now a professor of business and society at St. Joseph’s University in Philadelphia.  -  Charles Zech is a professor of economics and director of the center of Church Management at Villanova University. Their article, the second one, is entitled, “Why They Left” with the subtitle, “Exit interviews shed light on empty pews.”

Two articles: why someone became a Catholic; why some Catholics stopped being a Catholic.

The first article - “A Convert Looks At Vatican II” - is a convert story. It’s not a dramatic conversion story like Saul becoming Paul - part of whose story is in today’s first reading. [Cf. Acts 9:26-31]

John Jay Hughes was born in New York City in 1928 - the son and grandson of priests of the Episcopal Church. Interesting. At times I’ve heard one smart move of the Catholic Church with celibacy is that priests have to come from the laity and ordinary families. In that way we can avoid inbreeding of priests.

As I read his tale - on why he became a Catholic - I kept on wondering, “Why did he?” He didn’t sense that Catholic Mass and worship was life giving.  In the meanwhile, public worship and prayer in the Episcopal Church was devout and filled with reverence.

He tells about being 7 and his Irish Catholic nurse takes him into a Roman Catholic Church one evening for the recitation of the rosary. He said, “My 7-year-old soul was traumatized.” A young priest in the pulpit was yelling out the rosary at breakneck speed and the congregation answered at the same speed. There was no attempt to pray together.

Later on when he  attended Mass in various Catholic churches, it was the same bleak scene. Mass took 15 - even 12 minutes at times. It was done in silence. He said that the spoken parts might as well have been Chinese - because people didn’t understand the Latin.  Even when it shifted over to English, it was still too, too fast.

In the meanwhile, he became an Anglican priest. The Elizabethan language of the Anglican liturgy had a deep beauty to it. He didn’t sense that in the Roman Catholic Mass.

He experienced the Catholic Church as a closed, private club - to which nonmembers were not welcome.  He mentions a few times on how he was treated rather roughly by Catholic priests at Catholic churches. Yet at times he did hear some powerful preaching in Catholic churches.

So as I read that article, I kept wondering with all the negative reactions, why did he become a Catholic?

His big obstacle was Infallibility: the Infallibility of the Pope - as found in the Catholic Church.  Then he found out from some theologians, not all, that it was rather rare that a pope would make an infallible statement. 


So even with various things he didn’t like, he made a decision to become a Catholic. It was Easter 1960.  He said he did it with a cold heart.

Since the article is entitled, “A Convert Looks at Vatican II”, John Jay Hughes tells how Vatican II hit him - mentioning some of the heady stuff he liked and some of the local stuff that he didn’t like. For example:  clown Masses, “pulpit messages consisting of little more than ‘I’m O.K., you’re O.K.” etc.

He ends his article by saying he still has questions. He is still looking for more prayerful and devout liturgies.

His article still intrigues me and I read it 3 times already.

The second article, by William Byron and Charles Zech on Why They Left, is equally challenging. The new bishop of Trenton New Jersey, the former president of Catholic University, David O’Connell wanted a survey of why people were not going to church and why Catholics drop out. Byron and Zech came up with the names and addresses or e-mail addresses of  nearly 300 non-churchgoing Catholics in his diocese. They were asked to fill out the survey. The article does not provide the questionnaire. I’ll be looking for it. Wouldn’t it be worth giving it to not just those who dropped out - but to those who are staying - to find out what people are thinking.

We’re more than a bunch of silent grapes on a vine.  If I hear people clearly, we can at times have a bunch of gripes hanging in our mind.

The responses in the article are worth hearing and reading. If you use Google, just type in America magazine, April 30^th issue and read the article. I hope that not just the Bishop of Trenton, New Jersey, but lots of Bishops and priests and parish councils and folks in our Catholic Church will read it and say, “Okay, now what? What do we do about all this?”

The issues listed are: horrible homilies, poor music, the priest scandal and cover ups or doing nothing by bishops, no childcare, not being made welcome, enough with the money stuff, clerical privilege, hypocrisy, discrimination against women, the divorced, its anti-gay stance, overemphasis on abortion. On abortion the magazine adds, “This was mentioned by many, who think abortion is wrong but overemphasized to the exclusion of other social concerns.” Some say we don’t want to hear that God is cold, ritualistic, judgmental, harsh, unforgiving and unyielding. Who would want to be in communion with that kind of God?


There was no mention in the survey of the recent conflict of some in the Vatican with nuns in the United States - specifically with the LCWC [the Leadership Conference of Women Religious]. I assume that the articles were in place before this. I have a sister a nun and I've been following the uproar. Timing is everything. I wish someone in Rome would have screamed, "Are you crazy? Don't you realize how this is going to play in the United States? People love nuns and all that they have done for the Church and the poor. Doesn't anyone in Rome know that perception is reality?"

It sounded like one question in the survey was to ask people to describe or talk about any bad experiences. The article in America has this comment: “A 78 year old man said something that could serve as a guideline for the bishop in reacting to this survey. This man wrote: 'Ask a question of any priest and you get a rule; you don’t get a "let’s sit down and talk about it" response.'”

The article states that the survey asked, “If you could communicate directly with the bishop, what would you say?” That brought a few barbs and 10 helpful comments.  The first comment was: “The church should not condemn gays, but embrace them as God’s people. The church should also recognize women as equals.”  The last one was: “I would advise the bishop to make training in public speaking mandatory for every priest. They should also be trained in how to relate their homilies to the people and inspire them.”

The authors said the bishop of Trenton, Bishop O’Connell, has indicated that he personally will contact 25 people who said they would like to talk to him. The authors write that they hope the bishop for starters takes the advice of the 78 year old guy and doesn’t give Church rules but listens.

CONCLUSION

Grapes on a vine are beautiful and they are hanging there in bunches.  We Catholics come to church - sitting here in bunches.

If we are connected to the vine, the life blood of Jesus flows through us. If we cut off, we can die.

Some of us need to be pruned.

Sometimes we’re delicious and people want to eat us up.

Sometimes we are crushed. Hopefully we discover Christ in that pain.

Sometimes we might feel nobody notices that we’re just hanging here - like a single grape - part of a bunch of grapes -  on a vine.

Does anybody know I’m here? Ever feel that way. I want to thank those who have made comments, criticisms, suggestions, to me one to one. I’m well aware that we are a very big parish - with voices on the so called right and left, liberal and conservative. I know I tend to be to the left - but there are various priests here and you can check the blog to see who has what Mass. We are a big vineyard here on Duke of Gloucester Street and on Bestgate Road. May we all become delicious grapes. Who wants to sit down with sour grapes - or have vinegar flowing through our veins? 

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Painting on top: Kobe Art from on-line

THE  UNLIVED 

LIVES  OF  PARENTS

May  6, 2012

Quote for Today

"Nothing has a stronger influence psychologically on their environment, and especially on their children, than the unlived life of their parents."

C.G. Jung

Questions: Do you agree with Jung's comment?  Have you ever witnessed this comment in the flesh? Give specific examples. How about you?  Is their any unlived reality you act out about?

THE  WAY

INTRODUCTION

The title of my homily for this Friday in the 4^th week of Easter is, “The Way.”     W    A    Y

I was looking at today’s readings to try to come up with a homily for today. What grabbed me from today’s gospel  were the well known words of Jesus who said to Thomas, “I am the way and the truth and the life.” [John 14:6]

I decided on just looking at one of those 3 words of Jesus:   W A Y.

Jesus tells his disciples that he’s leaving them - but not to let their hearts be troubled. He tells them to have faith in him. He tells them that his Father has many dwelling places for them and that he is about to leave them but he’s preparing a place for them. Then he tells them -  that they know the way. Thomas jumps in and says, “We don’t know where you’re going so how can we know the way? That’s when Jesus tells his disciples, “I am the way and the truth and the life.”

THE WAY THE WORD  “WAY” IS USED IS FASCINATING

The way that word “way” is used is rather interesting. How many times in a day do we use the word “way”?

“What’s the best way to make a Manhattan?”

“Do you know the way to get to the Safeway store?”

“Do you know a better way to get to St. John’s?”

“I don’t like the way she looked at me.”

“No way!”

“Way to go.”

“I did it my way.”

“It’s his way or the highway!”

“I wonder why Annapolis or Washington D.C. never had a Broadway.”

“Way out!”

“I like the way your hair looks. Whom do you go to?”

“Way of all flesh….”

“Ways and means….”

“Does anyone know the way to get out of this mess?”

"A good way to lose weight is to go the lunch at Subway, but walk and don’t take the Subway to get there."

CHRISTIANITY

Before we had the word “Catholic” - one of the descriptions of the followers of Jesus was, “The Way!” [Cf. Acts 9:2]

The Greek word is this gospel and all the gospels when they talk about “way”, is “ODOS’.  I can hear the sound of the word “ROAD” in “ODOS”.

I hear lately a lot of people using the phrase, “You have to have a plan!”

So this is very basic stuff. How do I do life? What’s my plan? What’s my way of doing things?

When we get hung up in the edge stuff of Church - the peripheral stuff - it’s good to remember the basics. Being a Christian is being a follower of Jesus Christ. To be a Christian is to practice his way of doing life - his way of reaching out, his way of being aware of who’s pulling at the hem of his cloak out of need - his way of feeding others - his way of bringing forgiveness into people’s life. When we have in mind his way, we will get a sense of being able to say,  “I know my way in life!” Or, “I have a plan! I am trying to do want Jesus did.”

We’ve all heard the word “TAO” - pronounced “DOW”. It too simply means, “The Way!”

If any of you are in or have been in 12 step programs, you know the plan is to follow the steps - one day at a time. That’s the way to do life.

The Tao Te Ching of Lao Tzu says, “A tree as great as a man’s embrace springs from a small shoot. A terrace nine stories high begins from a small shoot. A journey of a thousand miles starts under one’s feet.”  


The Tao is take that first small beginning step. Then the second step and on and on and on.

A journey of 1000 miles begins with the first step.

The Christian follows in the footsteps of Jesus. Sometimes it’s the way of the cross. Sometimes it’s the way to transfiguration. Sometimes it’s the way to the desert. Sometimes it’s the banquet.

EL CAMINO DE SANTIAGO

I’m sure some of you heard about the movie with Martin Sheen in it - directed by his son, Emilio Estevez. It’s entitled, “The Way”. The movie takes place on the famous way, road, “El Camino”. It's the pilgrimage route in Spain to the famous shrine of St. James.

We find the practice of making a walking trip, a pilgrimage, a bus trip, a plane trip, to a famous shrine - as a key religious practice - whether it’s to Rome, Mecca, Lourdes, or El Camino de Santiago de Compostela in Spain or one's local church.

WASHINGTON D.C.

Years ago I’m walking down that green mall that leads to the Lincoln Memorial in Washington, D.C. I noticed in one big green rectangle of grass that there was a dirt path. The grass had been worn away. The dirt path was a perfect diagonal that cut the triangle in half into the equal triangles. It was obvious that this was the shortest way to cut across to the next street. Instead of walking down the sidewalk to where the sidewalk made a right angle, people cut across the grass.

I stopped and looked at it. It was a parable. It was a message. It was clear that a path often is the shortest distance between two points. The Native America paths, trails, become roads, became highways - from sea to shining sea. Historians say that El Camino de Santiago was part of an ancient Roman trade route.

Knowing the best path, the best way, certainly makes life easier for the traveler.

A MAN AND HIS WIFE

A man once told me that it wasn’t till he was 56 that he learned he barking up the wrong tree, he was taking the wrong path, he was doing life the wrong way.

Till 56 he had a deep frustration with is wife. She didn’t see life his way and he tried to change her 1000 times and he failed 1000 times. Then the light went on. I realized I couldn’t change her. How stupid of me. Once I realized she had her way of doing things and I had my way of doing things. Once I realized that and stopped wanting her to change, in came peace - at the age of 56.

CONCLUSION

So Christianity is not about following the 10 commandments or rules of church etc. per se, but it’s following a person - who teaches us how to do life. Follow him and his way and we'll be putting into practice the Great Commandment which sums up all commandments, that we love the Lord our God with our whole heart, mind, soul and strength and we love our neighbor as we love ourselves. Follow this way and we will have the way to His peace. Amen. 

RELIGION:  MUCH  ADO

ABOUT  ARGUING! 

May  4,  2012

Quote for Today

"The person who argues most about religion usually has the least of it."

Questions for Today

Is that true? Is it case by case?  How would you know that? Does anyone who argues religion [or politics or sports] with others ever change?  Is this one of those questions each of us has to answer for ourselves?  How often did Jesus answer those who questioned or argued with him?

Watercolor Painting on Top: The Pharisees and the Saducees Come to Tempt Jesus, by James Tissot [1836-1902]

THE  PRIORITY 

OF NOT MISSING 

THE ESSENCE 

May  3,  2012

Quote for Today

"Painting the pump 
  will not purify the water."

Old saying

Painting on top: Captain Phil Cusumano, found on line.

ATHANASIUS' 

BOTTOM   LINE 

ON  CHRIST! 

May  2,  2012

Quote for Today - Feast of St. Athanasius

"For He was made Man that we might be made God."

St. Athanasius [c.298-373]: On the Incarnation of the Word of God, 4th Century

Ikon on top: St. Athanasius

I am not sure how to be more inclusive with this quote from St. Athanasius - because I'm assuming that the He and the Man is referring to Jesus. I could say "Human" but I don't know what the original language text. So I want to simply state a dogmatic statement from one the great teachers of our Church: Athanasius.