Tuesday, October 13, 2009




FULL MOON MONSTRANCE



To share the moon with a thousand eyes
on a bright night like this,
knowing that millions, billions,
own this moon. It’s ours.
Do people on porches,
people walking their dog,
people closing their curtains
and their eyes for the night,
wonder is anyone else thinking
what I’m thinking as I’m looking at this moon?
Does a full moon make everyone different?
Does a full moon make everyone quiet?
Does everyone still feel the amazement
that some of us walked on this moon,
stuck flags on it, spent hours on it,
and then had to leave. Yet, like tourists
and travelers, took a few small rocks home
as souvenirs.
Do those few who think the moon landings
were a hoax really think that?
Do some see the Eucharist in the Moon
bringing together everyone in communion?




© Andy Costello, Reflections, 2009


DOES EVERYONE?


Does the other fellow ever long for the green grass in my yard or the new car in my driveway?
Does anybody want to be someone else and not themselves?
Does everyone want to be somewhere else and not here?
Does every married person feel lust for someone other than their spouse?
Does everyone say, “Why the heck and I doing this?”
Does everyone long for a vacation, but not with their family?
Does everyone who never went to college feel inferior to those who have a college degree?
Does everyone who goes to college find out that the biggest thing that college teaches is that smartness doesn’t come that way?
Does everyone feel stupid for at least three days after they made a dumb mistake or made a stupid remark?
Does everyone feel pride in themselves after they had a baby or wrote a song or scored the winning touchdown?
Does everyone like to dress up every once and a while and feel the joy that comes with a compliment?
Does everyone feel amazed at the size and structure of a baby’s hand – especially the pinkie?
Does everyone get scared about death at least once a month especially when they get older?
Does everyone have stuff they are scared to tell anyone else about?
Does everyone wonder if they really know anyone else?
Does everyone – sitting there on a bus or plane say, “I ought to write a book about my life. Nobody would believe it.”?
Does everyone leak?
Does everyone get more serious in the rain or when they are in pain?
Does everyone wonder – even in church – “Is this for real?” or “Is there anything after this?” and they mean, God and death?
Does everyone have a list of questions like this?

© Andy Costello, Reflections, 2009

FOOTPRINTS



I only seem to notice them in the snow
or on the evening beach, or on the moon,
or in poems and prayers about footprints.

I never seem to notice footprints
on the paths of my own stories,
in my hurts or in my all alones.

I forget to ask a friend if they ever walked
down this feeling – this beach – this path
this other side of the moon where I am right now.



© Andy Costello, Reflections, 2009
OH NOTHING!


I said, “Oh nothing!”

We both knew nothing
is always something.

“Nothing” sometimes
wears barbed wire.

The “Nothing” answer
can have that guttural sounding
echo, the “uuuuum”.

This “Nothing!”
comes after a lot of
talking to myself inside my night.

This “Nothing”
comes after some twisting
and turning my head and neck
to ease the tension that is
sitting on my shoulders.

This “Nothing”
contains a lie in my smile
as I avoid your eyes.

So that’s why I said,
“Oh, it’s nothing!”
as we’re still stuck in traffic.
A bridge is out.
We have to detour
around each other
in order to avoid this nothing.

“So what are you thinking?”

“Oh nothing.”



© Andy Costello, Reflections, 2009

AUTUMN LEAVES

A box of crayons
touched the leaves.

Photographers
grabbed their cameras.

Poets
grabbed their pens.

Cars slowed down.

Peoples stopped to gaze in awe.

So why don’t more people
visit their family and friends
in nursing homes?



© Andy Costello, Reflections, 2009

UNEXPECTED WORDS


It’s these unplanned unexpected conversations
that bring a relationship, a family,
a parish, a friendship together,
like last Sunday when you and I
just happened to come out of church at the same time.
We just began to talk, standing there by our cars.
Or like that shopping trip last Saturday.
We didn’t decide to go together, but we did,
and we spoke the kind of words
that glue people together – hearing what the other feels.
As they say, “Thank God the electricity went out!
We really hadn’t talked to each other in years.
Yes, we need the meetings and the meals,
but it’s these unexpected moments at doorways
or when things fail, that we open up the doors.



© Andy Costello, Reflections, 2009







INSIDE JOB

INTRODUCTION

The title of my homily is, “Inside Job.”

TODAY’S GOSPEL

In today’s gospel from Luke [11:37-41], Jesus is telling us once more to be careful of not becoming stuck outside the cup – concentrating on externals – and not taking care of inside business.

There is that temptation to avoid the hard work of inside growth: attitude growth, value growth, spiritual growth. It’s the stuff only we and God see – and sometimes that causes us an, “Uh oh! Oh no!”

There is that temptation to stay outside, because it’s often messy inside. So we avoid the mess by being superficial – which literally means, “staying on the surface”. Concentrate on the look – clothes – symbols of honor. Try to look good out there like the Pharisees – or concentrate on what others are doing wrong or not to our liking.

Christianity is an inside and outside job – but it starts within. Daily conversion begins as an inside job – in the heart – in the inner room.

Hey, as Jesus said, it’s much easier spotting other’s faults instead of dealing with our own. Gossip is easier than prayer. Gossip is easier than Gospel – being bearer of Good News.

I love the end of today’s gospel. In spite of what Jesus just said, he gives us a way out. Even if our life is a mess inside – put something in the poor box. Be generous. At least help the poor.

And there were a lot of people needing help here last night – for assistance from the St. Vincent de Paul Society. Thank you for your generosity.

ROMANS

And today’s first reading from Romans, [1:16-25], Romans which we started yesterday – the great letter which Augustine, Luther, and Barth, and so many other greats and littles, have been challenged by, urges us inside – inside God. Paul challenges us to see God’s invisible attributes in creation. Study, ponder, consider, God’s visible creative works of art that surround us – and see the power and divinity of God in them.

The next time you see a spider web, study it. Be amazed at the engineering, before you pull it down with a cleaning rag or mop.

The next time you see a baby’s fingers or toes, study them for a few moments – then tickle them.

The next time you have a ginger ale or soda, just look at the fizzy bubbles jumping up in the glass. From time to time I love to pour a can of soda into a glass and put the glass up to my chin and feel the ginger ale bubbles hitting my chin. Try it. You’ll like it.

Go to art museums or cathedrals or go to the aquarium in Baltimore and look at all those amazing creations.

Next time it rains, put your tongue out and taste some rain drops. Imagine a second grader telling her classmates, “My 84 year old grandma loves to lick rain drops out of the air.”

It’s October. Soon we’ll be seeing all those autumn leaves – with the October colors of fire red and orange orange and banana yellow and then the brown and tan colors of November leaves. Be ready to hear the sound of leaves on November sidewalks – running with the wind – moving with a shuffling sound up and down the red bricks of Annapolis.

Paul is saying visible creation shows us the power of the invisible God – inside everything. It’s an inside job. Spot God. Be amazed by God. Tell God, “Nice job – God – thank you for another beautiful day of life.”

CONCLUSION


So instead of spotting stuff we don’t like in others – like the Pharisee in today’s gospel, spot outside stuff and make it inside stuff. Reflect on the little things of everyday – as well as the vast canvas of the night sky. Let the little child in you start crying and laughing. Have the time of your life with God. God is a great baby sitter. [Cf. Mark 10: 13-16]

Start within. Life is both an inside job and an outside job.

We do a better outside job – if we do a better inside job.

Isn’t that why we come inside Church, inside God, inside prayer, inside the cup, each morning – so we can go out and do great outside jobs as well? Amen.


[This was my homily for this morning, the 28th Tuesday in ordinary time. The picture is of a big spider web in St. Mary's Prayer Garden - spotted by Pam our chef!]